jus wanted to share a feeling i m beginning to delve into much deeply these days..... m i alone ??
in the context of the whole universe, of the small part of this universe which is my world inclusive of my family, friends, colleagues, people i meet etc. isn't it so that we deal with some or all of these people in our lives everyday but nevertheless, at a certain point in time, if even for a fraction of a second, we feel completely isolated and alone .... i would atleast say so for myself coz i have felt this loneliness even sometimes when i am surrounded by people all around me .... its a feeling that creeps in which makes u realise that maybe nobody understands what u really are and what u really feel...... it sometimes makes me look at the mirror n jus stare , at my own self.....not recognising who i am ..........that's a moment for me to feel truly ALONE as i am myself not with me , leave alone other people in my life .......
i m sure we have some people in our lives with whom we connect and feel they know us better than we ourselves do......but do these people really and truly understand u especially when u wud want them to ? No , not for me.... its always me striving to give explanations for my behavioural changes to those people and my ownself ......not knowing sometimes whether i was actually able to get through that exact same feeling which i felt in my explanations as well...
this never-ending process still goes on , with life's complexities increasing day-by-day.... and i do feel ALONE most of the times !!! ......
Hi,
ReplyDeleteI am responding to this post in a hurry because of time crunch and also coz i know that if i dont put a response now, i might not be able to put one later.
Well about being alone or being surrounded by people, I would like to say that it's our state of mind. It's in my hand to feel alone inspite of being surrounded by numerous people or to feel comfortable being just with myself(Which we call being alone).
The best way to counter this is to imagine the times when I was surrounded by so many people(friends, relatives, parents and family) but I were longing for some time for my own self, some privacy some LONELY time where I could come to terms with my ownself.
Saurabh Bhalla